[ She nods in understanding. Honestly, she feels pretty silly for thinking otherwise. She gently bumps her nose against his, a silent way of letting him know he doesn't have to worry so much. ]
I guess I'm so used to constant engagement, that I gotta get used to chilling out a little, too. I believe you, though. I'm just glad things are okay.
[ She smiles softly, and gives him a chaste kiss on his lips. ]
I didn't mind it, though, despite my worries. I just...I just like being with you.
[Reassured, he lets out another laugh and gives her nose a little nuzzle.]
Eheh... We really do come from totally opposite lifestyles. I guess it's gotta be expected that they'd take effort to mesh together.
[For his part, it's been pretty jarring. He's had to grapple with a lot of kneejerk reactions to the normie activities that Kara enjoys. In some cases, he's felt as though he's had to force himself to partake, simply because he's so conditioned to turn his nose up at anything normie-related. After all, the more he partakes, the more of a normie he could become!
But...that's not so bad, is it? Looking down on normies is also looking down on Kara. What kind of a boyfriend would he be to do that?
He returns the kiss with ease, even going in for another after he responds.]
I like being with you too. So if I'm giving you weird vibes, it's okay if you say something. I don't want you to feel like I'm ignoring you.
[ But they're both trying to understand each other, and that's what counts. She doesn't even mind his anime or gaming obsession. She finds it fun, now. ]
Thanks for being so open with me. It...it really helps. I feel like I can trust you with pretty much anything.
[The more he hears these kind words directed at him, the easier it's become to accept them. Kara thinks he's special, and that means so much to him.
He returns the kiss with ease, letting it linger longer than usual. Even when they have to break to breathe, he finds himself wanting to immediately return to Kara's lips after. They're particularly sweet tonight. He's not sure why, but he's a bit transfixed.]
[ Kara's a little surprised by the urgency to kiss her again, but she's not complaining. She welcomes it, actually, in the way she eagerly kisses him back, and brings a hand up and around to brush against the back of his neck.
She pulls him closer, lets the kiss deepen a little. Her thumb idly traces a heart on his skin, and she can't help but smile against his lips.
[Levi gasps into the deepening kiss as Kara touches the nape of his neck. That sensation of her tracing gives him chills. He had no idea he was so sensitive there.
He finds himself a bit breathless when he backs off just a tiny amount to speak.]
I-I-I really like that, BTW.
[Like...just in case that sounded like a bad reaction or something. He doesn't know! He's never done this stuff before!
As he returns to the kiss, it dawns on him just how fast his heart is racing already. He's feeling a little...warm. But it's different from simply having Kara's warmth pressed against him. There's an unfamiliar heat brewing inside of him and he doesn't know what to do about it.]
[ She grins wider before she's pulled into another kiss, and keeps tracing that same pattern on his neck. She keeps kissing him, and each one grows more passionate. Soon, she finds herself sinking into him, and –
[The more she continues her motions and the deeper she kisses him, the hotter the fire within him begins to burn. It's weirdly exciting. He's weirdly excited. He accepts her fully, breathing a noise of satisfaction against her...
But Kara pulls back, and it gives Levi's brain the opportunity to catch up and process what's happening here.]
Push me...?
[Ah.
Ah.
The color in his face deepens immensely.]
Th-This is getting kinda...i-i-i-intimate, huh?
[Somehow, putting a name to this moment fills him with inexplicable fear. He's never...been with anyone like this. The thought is daunting, even if it felt like his body knew what it wanted...]
[Levi's incredibly appreciative that Kara's making it clear that she'll only go further if he's also on board. At the same time, being given the choice is always a massive internal struggle for him. What if he doesn't like it? Would Kara be disappointed? He doesn't want to disappoint her! Would it be better to back out? But that would also be disappointing down the road...
He squeezes his eyes shut in an attempt to force the constant stream of concerns to stop.]
I-It's not that I don't wanna. From what I was feeling just a second ago, I... I think it's kinda the exact opposite. I was getting hot...and I wanted to keep going.
[He returns his gaze to her, nervous and embarrassed.]
It's just... I-It's finally hitting me what "keep going" means. It's kinda scary.
[ Oh... She smiles a little, because it's nice to know he isn't opposed. But his fear is what gives her pause, and she reaches for his hand to give it a gentle squeeze. ]
Tell me what's bothering you? I can talk you through it. Seriously, I want us both to be comfortable with it.
[ She's not going to push for anything, even if she'd like to move further. ]
It's fine to be worried, but I don't want us to do anything if you're not sure.
[Kara's squeeze on his hand is grounding. He's able to take a deep breath and think.]
It's kind of hard to put into words, but I guess...it's the fact that I've never done this before. Fear of the unknown, and all that.
[It's hard to hide the hint of shame in his voice as he continues. Even harder is keeping eye contact now that he's getting into specifics.]
I liked what I was feeling, but what if I don't like the whole thing? Or what if it's not satisfying for you because you're gonna have to teach me? I just...don't wanna disappoint you.
[ She squeezes his hand again, and her free hand plants itself on his back. She gently rubs soothing circles on it, and maintains the smile on her face. ]
I had these worries too. I was pretty nervous when my first time came up, so don't feel bad for freaking out. I'm willing to teach you because I love you, and I'll have fun, too.
[ Seeing Levi worry so much makes her heart ache a little, but she feels like she has to talk him through this. It's helped before. Hopefully it'll help this time, too. ]
If you really want to give it a shot, we'll see how it goes, but I promise I'll do my best to make it good for the both of us, okay?
[Much like in the past, Kara's reassurance helps here too. He visibly calms down as he listens, and soon enough he's making eye contact again. Though he's still nervous, he looks hopeful.]
...Okay.
[There's no hint of reluctance, no signs of giving in to pressure. With Kara assuaging his concerns, he's allowing himself to get excited again.]
I, um. I wanna do this. I wanna take the next step with you.
[His face turns very red and he lets out a sheepish laugh.]
It's not like I can claim I haven't thought about it...a-about what you feel like.
[ She turns very red, too, and looks at him with surprise. Then, she clears her throat and nods, cheeks still burning. Slowly, she guides him so she's on his back, and she positions herself so she's on top of him. ]
Then...while I, um, do this...you have my permission to touch me, wherever you want, whenever you want. I mean that. And if I want you to do something, I'll let you know.
[ Oh, and before she forgets: ]
I, um. I have a condom in my purse. I'm used to carrying one around just in case, so we're covered there.
[At the end of the day, Levi is only human. While he's been more than content to cuddle and make out, even he's not immune to fantasy. The potential of those fantasies becoming reality, however, was a bit overwhelming at first.
He allows her to guide him, watching her with slightly wide eyes as he feels his heart immediately begin to drum back up in his chest. Soon enough, she's putting her weight on top of him and he sharply inhales with trembling excitement.]
Okay...!
[It's kind of wheezed out as he adjusts to all these new sights and senses, but he wants to make sure Kara knows she's been heard.]
I've, um...I've got one too. [A condom, he means.] N-N-Not that I was expecting this! It's just...Aiden...
[The mention of Aiden should speak for itself, honestly. Aiden has eyes and no filter.]
A-Anyway, I'm gonna...hold you now?
[He has no idea how this goes. Foreplay's a thing, right? They make out and then start with the touching? He needs to get that fire stoked again...then maybe his instincts will start to take over.]
[ She shifts her weight forward and leverages herself on her shoulders. A smile forms on her lips, and she can't help but find the Aiden bit at least a little funny. She laughs quietly, and nods, giving Levi permission to hold her as much as he'd like. ]
Sounds perfect. I'll start here.
[ Foreplay is absolutely a thing, and she's about to initiate it with how she leans down to bring him into a deep, passionate kiss. It's more than just that, though, because as her lips work against him, she feels her heart race. It's not just from excitement, it's because she gets to take care of Levi. They get to take their relationship further, and like him, she's thought about this before. Making it a reality is a little overwhelming, but she's not complaining.
While she kisses him, she lowers her body downward so it's almost completely flush against his. Their hips are notably touching. ]
[As Kara leans in for the kiss, Levi carefully places his hands on her waist. It's not the first time he's done this, but his thought process changes in this context. With her permission, he can now explore her body in a new way. He allows himself to think about how amazing her curves feel under his hands as he lets them wander up and down her sides. He takes in the press of her lips on his...as well as the press of her breasts and hips against his body. It's hard to keep his breathing under control, so he doesn't even bother trying.
He brings his legs up with his feet firm against the bed to better support her, increasing the press of her weight on him in the process. His grip on her suddenly tightens when her hips brush against his.
[ There's a rush of heat that pools in her stomach when he shifts, and when she sinks into him a little more, Kara lets out a low moan into the kiss. She lets one of her hands move down to the bottom of his shirt, and gently, she pushes it upwards as her hand ghosts over his stomach, his waist. She wants it off, as well as her own, with how he's touching her...but she won't move too fast. Kara is making the conscious effort to take her time, even though she desperately wants to feel all of him, all at once.
Once his shirt is about halfway up his torso, she breaks the kiss reluctantly and takes a moment to breathe. Her breathing is hot and heavy, and she looks at him to gauge for his reaction. ]
I'm going to take this off, okay? And then – [ She tugs at her own shirt. ] this, too.
[Levi's closed eyes scrunch up tightly when Kara's moan reverberates into his mouth. He can feel his heart pounding against his ears...and...elsewhere... That fire has been reignited big time, that's for sure.
He makes some vague sound of embarrassment when she sneaks under his shirt, though he doesn't stop her. Unlike the hardened abs of his Fragment avatar, his actual stomach is soft to the touch, nestled in a light layer of fat. It moves slightly with every vocal motion Levi makes- something that only serves to embarrass him further when Kara talks of wanting to remove their shirts.]
I-If...if you really wanna... [Cheeks on fire, he rolls his head to the side to look at the wall. This is what he chooses to be reluctant about.] I'm not...much to look at, though...
[ She frowns when he looks away, and what follows breaks her heart. Kara gently brushes her fingers against his cheek, guides him to look at her again. ]
Hey... [ She shakes her head. ] You aren't "not much" to look at. You're everything to me, Levi.
[ She presses another kiss to his lips, but this one's soft and sweet. ]
It's okay if you want to leave it on, but I'm not asking you to be anything but yourself. I'm not going to scrutinize your body, because there's nothing to be critical about. [ She doesn't have to see it to know it. ] You're perfect as you are. I'm sure of it.
[He lets her guide him, still very much looking like he's feeling sorry for himself until she reassures him that it's okay.
Some things take time to heal, and Levi's poor self-image is definitely one thing that's going to take a while. Every little bit of encouragement from Kara does so much for him, though. Without that, it may never have never gotten better at all.
When Kara pulls away from the kiss, Levi manages the tiniest of smiles. He's still unsure of himself, but the part of him that believes Kara wins out.]
Thank you, Kara-chan.
[This is one of those times when he wonders how he managed to get so lucky with Kara entering his life.
He removes his hands from her so they can proceed.]
I can, um...I can help you with yours after you do mine, if you want?
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[ She nods in understanding. Honestly, she feels pretty silly for thinking otherwise. She gently bumps her nose against his, a silent way of letting him know he doesn't have to worry so much. ]
I guess I'm so used to constant engagement, that I gotta get used to chilling out a little, too. I believe you, though. I'm just glad things are okay.
[ She smiles softly, and gives him a chaste kiss on his lips. ]
I didn't mind it, though, despite my worries. I just...I just like being with you.
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Eheh... We really do come from totally opposite lifestyles. I guess it's gotta be expected that they'd take effort to mesh together.
[For his part, it's been pretty jarring. He's had to grapple with a lot of kneejerk reactions to the normie activities that Kara enjoys. In some cases, he's felt as though he's had to force himself to partake, simply because he's so conditioned to turn his nose up at anything normie-related. After all, the more he partakes, the more of a normie he could become!
But...that's not so bad, is it? Looking down on normies is also looking down on Kara. What kind of a boyfriend would he be to do that?
He returns the kiss with ease, even going in for another after he responds.]
I like being with you too. So if I'm giving you weird vibes, it's okay if you say something. I don't want you to feel like I'm ignoring you.
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[ But they're both trying to understand each other, and that's what counts. She doesn't even mind his anime or gaming obsession. She finds it fun, now. ]
Thanks for being so open with me. It...it really helps. I feel like I can trust you with pretty much anything.
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Same here. I thought it would be trickier than it's turned out to be...but you've just got that magic Kara-chan charm. I wanna give you my all.
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[ And with that, she cups his cheek and leans in for a kiss. ]
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He returns the kiss with ease, letting it linger longer than usual. Even when they have to break to breathe, he finds himself wanting to immediately return to Kara's lips after. They're particularly sweet tonight. He's not sure why, but he's a bit transfixed.]
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She pulls him closer, lets the kiss deepen a little. Her thumb idly traces a heart on his skin, and she can't help but smile against his lips.
He's perfect. ]
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He finds himself a bit breathless when he backs off just a tiny amount to speak.]
I-I-I really like that, BTW.
[Like...just in case that sounded like a bad reaction or something. He doesn't know! He's never done this stuff before!
As he returns to the kiss, it dawns on him just how fast his heart is racing already. He's feeling a little...warm. But it's different from simply having Kara's warmth pressed against him. There's an unfamiliar heat brewing inside of him and he doesn't know what to do about it.]
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ah. She pulls back, breathing heavily. ]
Levi... I – I don't want to push you.
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But Kara pulls back, and it gives Levi's brain the opportunity to catch up and process what's happening here.]
Push me...?
[Ah.
Ah.
The color in his face deepens immensely.]
Th-This is getting kinda...i-i-i-intimate, huh?
[Somehow, putting a name to this moment fills him with inexplicable fear. He's never...been with anyone like this. The thought is daunting, even if it felt like his body knew what it wanted...]
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[ She hesitates. She worries that she's pressuring him, but they're broaching the subject, so... ]
Listen, I'm fine with it, if you are. I've – I have experience, so I can totally help you, but...only if you want to.
I don't mind if we don't.
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He squeezes his eyes shut in an attempt to force the constant stream of concerns to stop.]
I-It's not that I don't wanna. From what I was feeling just a second ago, I... I think it's kinda the exact opposite. I was getting hot...and I wanted to keep going.
[He returns his gaze to her, nervous and embarrassed.]
It's just... I-It's finally hitting me what "keep going" means. It's kinda scary.
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Tell me what's bothering you? I can talk you through it. Seriously, I want us both to be comfortable with it.
[ She's not going to push for anything, even if she'd like to move further. ]
It's fine to be worried, but I don't want us to do anything if you're not sure.
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It's kind of hard to put into words, but I guess...it's the fact that I've never done this before. Fear of the unknown, and all that.
[It's hard to hide the hint of shame in his voice as he continues. Even harder is keeping eye contact now that he's getting into specifics.]
I liked what I was feeling, but what if I don't like the whole thing? Or what if it's not satisfying for you because you're gonna have to teach me? I just...don't wanna disappoint you.
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[ She squeezes his hand again, and her free hand plants itself on his back. She gently rubs soothing circles on it, and maintains the smile on her face. ]
I had these worries too. I was pretty nervous when my first time came up, so don't feel bad for freaking out. I'm willing to teach you because I love you, and I'll have fun, too.
[ Seeing Levi worry so much makes her heart ache a little, but she feels like she has to talk him through this. It's helped before. Hopefully it'll help this time, too. ]
If you really want to give it a shot, we'll see how it goes, but I promise I'll do my best to make it good for the both of us, okay?
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...Okay.
[There's no hint of reluctance, no signs of giving in to pressure. With Kara assuaging his concerns, he's allowing himself to get excited again.]
I, um. I wanna do this. I wanna take the next step with you.
[His face turns very red and he lets out a sheepish laugh.]
It's not like I can claim I haven't thought about it...a-about what you feel like.
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...You have?
[ She turns very red, too, and looks at him with surprise. Then, she clears her throat and nods, cheeks still burning. Slowly, she guides him so she's on his back, and she positions herself so she's on top of him. ]
Then...while I, um, do this...you have my permission to touch me, wherever you want, whenever you want. I mean that. And if I want you to do something, I'll let you know.
[ Oh, and before she forgets: ]
I, um. I have a condom in my purse. I'm used to carrying one around just in case, so we're covered there.
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[At the end of the day, Levi is only human. While he's been more than content to cuddle and make out, even he's not immune to fantasy. The potential of those fantasies becoming reality, however, was a bit overwhelming at first.
He allows her to guide him, watching her with slightly wide eyes as he feels his heart immediately begin to drum back up in his chest. Soon enough, she's putting her weight on top of him and he sharply inhales with trembling excitement.]
Okay...!
[It's kind of wheezed out as he adjusts to all these new sights and senses, but he wants to make sure Kara knows she's been heard.]
I've, um...I've got one too. [A condom, he means.] N-N-Not that I was expecting this! It's just...Aiden...
[The mention of Aiden should speak for itself, honestly. Aiden has eyes and no filter.]
A-Anyway, I'm gonna...hold you now?
[He has no idea how this goes. Foreplay's a thing, right? They make out and then start with the touching? He needs to get that fire stoked again...then maybe his instincts will start to take over.]
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Sounds perfect. I'll start here.
[ Foreplay is absolutely a thing, and she's about to initiate it with how she leans down to bring him into a deep, passionate kiss. It's more than just that, though, because as her lips work against him, she feels her heart race. It's not just from excitement, it's because she gets to take care of Levi. They get to take their relationship further, and like him, she's thought about this before. Making it a reality is a little overwhelming, but she's not complaining.
While she kisses him, she lowers her body downward so it's almost completely flush against his. Their hips are notably touching. ]
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He brings his legs up with his feet firm against the bed to better support her, increasing the press of her weight on him in the process. His grip on her suddenly tightens when her hips brush against his.
Whew. He suddenly feels everything.]
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Once his shirt is about halfway up his torso, she breaks the kiss reluctantly and takes a moment to breathe. Her breathing is hot and heavy, and she looks at him to gauge for his reaction. ]
I'm going to take this off, okay? And then – [ She tugs at her own shirt. ] this, too.
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He makes some vague sound of embarrassment when she sneaks under his shirt, though he doesn't stop her. Unlike the hardened abs of his Fragment avatar, his actual stomach is soft to the touch, nestled in a light layer of fat. It moves slightly with every vocal motion Levi makes- something that only serves to embarrass him further when Kara talks of wanting to remove their shirts.]
I-If...if you really wanna... [Cheeks on fire, he rolls his head to the side to look at the wall. This is what he chooses to be reluctant about.] I'm not...much to look at, though...
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[ She frowns when he looks away, and what follows breaks her heart. Kara gently brushes her fingers against his cheek, guides him to look at her again. ]
Hey... [ She shakes her head. ] You aren't "not much" to look at. You're everything to me, Levi.
[ She presses another kiss to his lips, but this one's soft and sweet. ]
It's okay if you want to leave it on, but I'm not asking you to be anything but yourself. I'm not going to scrutinize your body, because there's nothing to be critical about. [ She doesn't have to see it to know it. ] You're perfect as you are. I'm sure of it.
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Some things take time to heal, and Levi's poor self-image is definitely one thing that's going to take a while. Every little bit of encouragement from Kara does so much for him, though. Without that, it may never have never gotten better at all.
When Kara pulls away from the kiss, Levi manages the tiniest of smiles. He's still unsure of himself, but the part of him that believes Kara wins out.]
Thank you, Kara-chan.
[This is one of those times when he wonders how he managed to get so lucky with Kara entering his life.
He removes his hands from her so they can proceed.]
I can, um...I can help you with yours after you do mine, if you want?
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[ And once he seems okay with it, Kara starts slipping his shirt up, and off of him. And once that's done... ]
...Levi. You really are perfect.
[ She's smiling so much. ]
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